And now, we wait.
So am I pregnant or aren't I? I don't know. And I probably won't know for another few weeks (when I see if I've missed my period or not - and can take a home pregnancy test if I have). And that blows. Not knowing is the worst part of all of it - plus the fear that we may have screwed up our timing or whatever else in the attempt.
It's frustrating. I've spent the last week researching and reading and trying to gauge my own body and what it's been trying to tell me. And I've found out two things:
1) I am supremely lacking when it comes to knowledge about this stuff.
and
2) Even if I weren't I still might not know due to their being no concrete information to be found online.
I should explain #2, I suppose. Every woman is different. Anybody with a vagina and breasts knows this. And usually that's okay. The problem comes when you try to find out what the signs of fertility/pregnancy are, only to find out that there's no clear-cut way to tell about either of those things. Some women have certain signs. Some don't. Some become fertile earlier. Some later. It's all incredibly confusing. And, for a person who likes concrete facts about whatever she's researching, it's all very frustrating as well.
And now I'm at that time where I just have to sit back and wait. Ovulation is over - I think, maybe, if I read the signs right (and I'm not sure that I have) - and there's nothing else to do until my body decides to declare what's going on one way or the other.
The research I did said that a woman only has about a 20%-25% chance to get pregnant during any month (and that's if conditions are optimal and timing is spot on), and that most couples take months before it happens (and maybe up to a year, if there aren't fertility problems). It amazes me... Some women get pregnant at the drop of a hat, whether they want to or not...usually when they don't. Young girls have sex for the first time and wind up pregnant at 15 or 14 or less. Me, I'm trying SO HARD (and my hubby is, too) for this to work and it might take months. Having sex pretty much every single day (or every day, in the case of the past week or so) hasn't helped our chances in the least. We still have 20%-25%. And that blows. Big time.
*Sigh* Well... Nothing to do now but wait and see what happens. I just hope that we made it, and that we don't have to go through this month after month. I don't know if I could take it.
It's frustrating. I've spent the last week researching and reading and trying to gauge my own body and what it's been trying to tell me. And I've found out two things:
1) I am supremely lacking when it comes to knowledge about this stuff.
and
2) Even if I weren't I still might not know due to their being no concrete information to be found online.
I should explain #2, I suppose. Every woman is different. Anybody with a vagina and breasts knows this. And usually that's okay. The problem comes when you try to find out what the signs of fertility/pregnancy are, only to find out that there's no clear-cut way to tell about either of those things. Some women have certain signs. Some don't. Some become fertile earlier. Some later. It's all incredibly confusing. And, for a person who likes concrete facts about whatever she's researching, it's all very frustrating as well.
And now I'm at that time where I just have to sit back and wait. Ovulation is over - I think, maybe, if I read the signs right (and I'm not sure that I have) - and there's nothing else to do until my body decides to declare what's going on one way or the other.
The research I did said that a woman only has about a 20%-25% chance to get pregnant during any month (and that's if conditions are optimal and timing is spot on), and that most couples take months before it happens (and maybe up to a year, if there aren't fertility problems). It amazes me... Some women get pregnant at the drop of a hat, whether they want to or not...usually when they don't. Young girls have sex for the first time and wind up pregnant at 15 or 14 or less. Me, I'm trying SO HARD (and my hubby is, too) for this to work and it might take months. Having sex pretty much every single day (or every day, in the case of the past week or so) hasn't helped our chances in the least. We still have 20%-25%. And that blows. Big time.
*Sigh* Well... Nothing to do now but wait and see what happens. I just hope that we made it, and that we don't have to go through this month after month. I don't know if I could take it.
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