Laziness and baby ponderings.
I've been putting off blogging for almost a week, now. No reason why, really. I haven't had time to do it at work (until today), and when I get home I just want to lie around and do nothing. I *especially* don't want to think up pithy things to say to an audience of one (myself...or two if Thom reads this regularly). And...well... my thoughts have just been elsewhere.
The baby thing has taken up most of my spare time lately. I keep thinking about names, and when we can start working on it, and just the MASSIVE responsibility of the whole thing. Holy life changing events, Batman. And I'm trying to be calm. Really. I'm trying to keep from stressing myself out or, worse, panicking. I'm doing okay for the most part. Usually. When I'm distracted.
My friend Ian said something that really blew me away. I reminded him during some conversation or other what a big responsibility this is, and he said, "Of course it is. You're creating a life. That's the closest to godliness a human can come." When I read that (we were conversing through email, like usual), I was just hit by this sudden, overwhelming wave of awe. Because he's right. Having a baby isn't like buying a house, or a car, or embarking on some other big, expensive, life-altering event. We'll be MAKING A PERSON. A real, living person that isn't even on this planet yet. That amazes me. It's such a small thing, really, but the enormity of this small act takes my breath away. And thanks to this revelation - epiphany, really - I can't wait to get going. I can't wait to see my body change. I can't wait to feel this tiny little being growing inside me. The first time he/she kicks, I think I'll burst into tears.
Bring on the morning sickness, and the sore back, and the swollen ankles and feet. Bring on the sleepless nights, and the poopy diapers, and all the rest of it. It'll all be worth it - a million times over, too - to see that small part of the hubby and I come into being and make his/her way in the world.
"A child is the best headache you'll ever have." That was the hubby that said that. He has a daughter, so he knows. And I think that he's absolutely right.
I'm ready.
The baby thing has taken up most of my spare time lately. I keep thinking about names, and when we can start working on it, and just the MASSIVE responsibility of the whole thing. Holy life changing events, Batman. And I'm trying to be calm. Really. I'm trying to keep from stressing myself out or, worse, panicking. I'm doing okay for the most part. Usually. When I'm distracted.
My friend Ian said something that really blew me away. I reminded him during some conversation or other what a big responsibility this is, and he said, "Of course it is. You're creating a life. That's the closest to godliness a human can come." When I read that (we were conversing through email, like usual), I was just hit by this sudden, overwhelming wave of awe. Because he's right. Having a baby isn't like buying a house, or a car, or embarking on some other big, expensive, life-altering event. We'll be MAKING A PERSON. A real, living person that isn't even on this planet yet. That amazes me. It's such a small thing, really, but the enormity of this small act takes my breath away. And thanks to this revelation - epiphany, really - I can't wait to get going. I can't wait to see my body change. I can't wait to feel this tiny little being growing inside me. The first time he/she kicks, I think I'll burst into tears.
Bring on the morning sickness, and the sore back, and the swollen ankles and feet. Bring on the sleepless nights, and the poopy diapers, and all the rest of it. It'll all be worth it - a million times over, too - to see that small part of the hubby and I come into being and make his/her way in the world.
"A child is the best headache you'll ever have." That was the hubby that said that. He has a daughter, so he knows. And I think that he's absolutely right.
I'm ready.
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