My beautiful little girl! :)

What else needs to be said, really? :)

Baby news

Aislinn (pronounced Ace-lynn) Brie was born to the hubby and I on Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006 at 12:35 pm. She weighed 8 lbs. 9 oz. at the time of birth and is 19.5 inches long. After three days spent in the hospital, baby and I are home and doing quite well (though healing after a C-section blows). She's THE BEST baby - hardly fusses at all and even then it only lasts a minute or two - and is ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL! :D

I just had to share. :D

Not much time today...

I'm having a C-section tomorrow. My baby (9 pounds or so!) is too large for me to have a natural childbirth (or rather, I'm too small "down there"), so the doctor thought it best. I'm relieved at that - I was afraid of how it would go - but am still not looking forward to being cut open in the process.

I haven't been sleeping well. Too many thoughts - too many emotions. Most of the time I can block out the worries and the "What am I going to do *now*!?" response that I normally have to the whole thing*. But at night, in the dark, it's much more difficult. Don't get me wrong...I'm happy she'll be here soon (my body can't take much more of this, anyway), but I just don't know how I'm going to be as a mom. I worry I'll be like my mom was, and that keeps my excitement about the event at a minimum. I'm sure I'll feel better about it after it's all done.

I'd feel better now, if I had any clue about what to do with a baby.

My mother-in-law (who I adore) is coming in on Saturday to stay for 10 days. I'm glad - she knows I'll need the help. And my parents are just 5 minutes (or a phone call) away. I'm glad for that, too. As much as part of me wishes that this would be the hubby's first child (he has one from a previous relationship, but she doesn't live with us), I'm glad he has some experience with this.

I wish babies came with instructions. Or that I had taken up babysitting as a teenager. It would make this a much easier ordeal, and leave me with a lot less anxiety.

Maybe that's why I have such frequent heartburn. :/

* I don't mean to say that I regret getting pregnant. I don't. At all. I just question how good a job I'll do. It's the new mom thing, I guess - "What if I break her?" Add to that the fact that my own mother is/was crazy (no joke), and I'm sure you can understand my apprehension.